Dear Babes of Blogland

I want to take a minute today to thank all of you lovely ladies (+ gentlemen, I assume boys read this sometimes too. even if it's just because I make them, thanks guys!) I know sometimes it's hard to tell because I'm all jokes and snark, but this past year has been really challenging for me. I'm sure it will probably read like I'm super conceited or something -- but I've always felt like I was good enough. I've never really failed at anything I've tried. I'm sure it's thanks in part to the fact that I feel like I need to put my all into whatever I do, but not landing a job in baseball just about ruined me. 

my posture is outstanding.

Enter the blog life. [I didn't choose the bloglife, it choose me] If you had asked me back in December of 2013 what I thought would come out of writing my own blog, I probably would have laughed and said "I don't know, a little carpel tunnel?" because I've never put my whole effort into it before, unless it's been for work. I remember seeing those page-views rise, getting reasonable comments that weren't spam, and thinking "hey, maybe I am actually good at this!" So I really needed it when I didn't get the dream job. 

I never would have imagined that I would build the relationships and friendships I have in this short year-ish. I never would have imagined that these women could make me feel like I'm still worthy and that maybe everything doesn't happen for a reason we can see, but a reason we have to trust. If I had landed a baseball job, I maybe never would have focused as much time and energy on this little space. I probably wouldn't have met the outstanding people that make me feel like the prettiest princess every day with their comments + instagram likes + tweets. 

I've never needed to be the center of attention (okay. well except on my birthday because IT'S MY BIRTHDAY OKAY), so it seemed crazy to me that I could write a blog about my life and thoughts and how I feel about baseball pants and snowboarders and that people would actually read it. I've never considered myself funny, like really funny, until I let it out here (and on twitter...) I feel like I have really grown as a person + it's 456% thanks to all of the fantastic people in the blogosphere. So, thank you for being a friend. 

see what I did there?