not because I'm afraid to talk about what I think I should or could do better, but more so because I recognize my faults, all of them, and I'm afraid of either being too hard on myself and seeming to lack confidence, or not being hard enough and seeming arrogant and unwilling to learn. I came here to learn, and I have learned a lot. I don't want that to be lost in what I want to do with my career and what steps I need to take to get there. I also don't want to seem too desperate to get back to the Braves and the East Coast.
We work a million hours a week. We see each other constantly. So when we have a break what do we do? Hang out together. Sometimes I just want to get away. Somewhere I don't know anyone, somewhere it's okay for me to just sit and read. Somewhere I don't want to punch everyone. My whole body is fried. This is the part where I would have been better off close to home. This is the part where I could just go spend time with my parents or family and be away from everything work (or school) related. This is the part where a part of me should ask why I even chose baseball, but instead this is the part where I shop to fill the void and remind myself that I love my job. This is the part where I figured out exactly what I want to do, and exactly where I want to be.